Monday April 18, 2016

Authentic happiness is to be found not in selfishness, but in self-giving.

Good Morning All. Yesterday at church the pastor spoke about how “God never said he wanted us to be happy”. The pastor said that “God wants us to more than happy. God wants his children to be blessed”. The sermon was good. I always enjoy going to church because I take away things from the sermon which I can apply to my life.

Today my goals are to search for apartments and jobs. I might go dress hunting today. I also hope to make it to the gym tonight for Conditioning Class and also for Boxing Class.

But first I have to turn on the dryer again as my clothes are still wet. I also have to eat oatmeal and peanutbutter toast. And I want to make tea and coffee.

Okay that is all to write for now.

Sunday April 17, 2016

Yesterday I delivered newspapers and then I went to the gym for two hours. Conditioning Class was difficult but great. Boxing class was amazing. I finally have my first fitness goal to work towards. My goal right now is to gain upper body strength. After the gym I went dress hunting. I checked out a dress shop and also some stores in one of the malls and also a Salvation Army but nothing seemed appropriate to wear as a Bridesmaid dress for my friend’s wedding which is next month.

Today unfortunately I have to rest because the gym is closed but at least I was able to go out and deliver newspapers this morning. I am still busy cleaning. I was missing some tennis balls but finally found them yesterday. Tonight my goal is to go to church. I might go dress hunting today. I want to check out Sears, Mayfair Mall and a dress-shop called “Blush”.

I also want to take my camera downtown and act like a photographer. I also have to send out job applications and look for an apartment. Finally the other thing is that I want to have no contact with my parents for the next two weeks. We will see how long that will last for.

I like “The Chainsmokers” new song called “Don’t Let Me Down”. I find the song to be very powerful and it speaks to me at this time in my life.

In the song the words that speak to me are “I Need You Right Now”.  What I need from all the people in my life are for them to be supportive of my choices. I don’t want them to tell me that things will be okay. I just want them to be supportive of my choices. I have a choice to stay living in Victoria or move back to Vancouver and I am choosing not to move back to Vancouver.

Also my wrist is feeling amazing. I feel that the Tendonitis is gone. I want to attempt to do some knitting in two weeks. I might wrap my wrists up while I knit. But I want to attempt to work on knitting two sweaters. I also want to get rid of a bunch of yarn, knitting needles and crochet hooks. I only want to keep the needles and crochet hooks for my favorite patterns.

Okay that is all to write for now. I might write more later.

Tired

I am tired of trying to be somebody I am not.

I am tired of trying to make it as a writer. I am tired of trying to make it in the arts, crafts and textiles field. I am tired of trying to have an interest in musical instruments.

I am tired of trying to take other peoples interests like family members interests and make them my own.

I want to start carving my own path in the world and not try to be like my family or look towards my family for inspiration. I don’t want to ask my family about their thoughts anymore.

I want to make my own decisions. And again I want to start carving my own path in the world even though their might be struggles along the way.

Friday April 15, 2016

I need to get off my chest that I am feeling very angry. My dad and uncle think its okay to talk about me and I don’t like that. My uncle thinks he has the right to say what I should be doing with my life and that pisses me off. I know I shouldn’t be angry because I live in a different city then my dad and uncle but I am angry. I feel like my uncle should just butt out of my life. Okay that’s all I want to write for now.

 

Now for some positive news. I went to the gym and took part in Boxing class on Wednesday. I arrived at the gym too early though and just felt like warming up. Coach got pissed off at me for coming too early. Oops. I think coach thought I was hoping in taking part in conditioning class as well. Then yesterday I took part in Boxing and Kickboxing class. Today I took a break from the gym. Been cleaning today.

 

10 Crazy Goals

10 Crazy Goals

1. Becoming An Actress

2. Becoming An Artist

3. Becoming An Author

4. Becoming A Poet

5. Getting My Art Work Into An Art Gallery

6. Holding An Art Show

7. Run An Arts And Crafts Business

8. Run A Textiles Business

9. Selling My Art Work

10.       Write A Novel

Clutter and Stuff - A Poem

Clutter and Stuff

The world is full of clutter

The world is full of stuff

All throughout our lives growing up and all throughout our school lives we are told that clutter and stuff will bring us happiness

But all I find is that clutter and stuff brings me stress

The world is full of clutter

The world is full of stuff

And I am not into contributing to a world full of clutter and stuff

The world is full of clutter

 The world is full of stuff

Isn’t it a time we stopped caring about clutter and stuff and start caring living a more stress and happy free life?

The world is full of clutter

The world is full of stuff

I don’t know about you but I am tired of living in a world full of clutter and stuff

Monday April 11, 2016

Good Morning All. Early this morning I had a major headache so I had to take Tylenol. But now I am feeling better. I through my laundry into the washing machine this morning at 7am. Then I ate oatmeal and had some toast with jam on it. I also made a cup of lemon ginger tea. Now my laundry is in the dryer. Today is going to be a busy day for me. Today I have a job interview, I am looking at a house and am also going to the gym. okay that is all to post for now.