Wednesday (Mercredi) March 30, 2016

Wednesday (Mercredi) March 30, 2016

(Note Mercredi is French for Wednesday)

Good Morning All. Yesterday I was searching for apartments. It is frustrating, depressing, difficult and upsetting at times. It makes me stressed out. I only have literally one month left to find a new place. Been writing some poems because of my frustrations. Will blog more later.

Okay I just have to get some feelings out in the open. Whenever I talk to my parents these days especially to my mom I get frustrated and angry with her. I get to the point where I don't want to talk to her for weeks at a time and just want to break off contact entirely with her. I find her to be too critical. I just seriously don't want her to be in my life anymore.

       

Poem 1: No Title

(Note – I am thinking of calling this poem 4 In The Morning)

Its four in the morning

It’s dark outside

And I am rising early

Before everyone else

Ready to push myself

And go running

While delivering papers.

 

a girls gotta do

what a girls gotta do

to become a champion

 

dressed in a rain jacket and rain pants

feet flying along the pavement

music blaring from my cellphone

papers flung onto lawns

deer being startled

rabbits quick as can be hopping across lawns.

 

A girls gotta do

what a girls gotta do

to become a champion

 

Its four in the morning

It’s dark outside

And I am rising early

Before everyone else

Ready to push myself

And become a champion

 

A girls gotta do

what a girls gotta do

to become a champion

 

Poem 2: Tears

 

Can’t stop the tears

From falling down my face

 

Feeling stressed out

Feeling depressed

Feeling all alone

Feeling like the worlds against me

 

Can’t stop the tears

From falling down my face

 

All I want to do

Is crawl under blankets and hide

Wanting to disappear

And vanish into thin air

 

Can’t stop the tears

From falling down my face

 

My spirits are low

It’s hard to stay positive

It’s hard to put on a brave outlook

It’s hard to be optimistic and smile

And pretend that everything is okay

 

Can’t stop the tears

From falling down my face

 

I am told to have faith and hope

But I ain’t got no faith and hope

I am told to pray to God by Mormons,

who think they have all the answers

But I ain’t got no time to pray to God

Or listen to Mormons talk about rubbish

 

Can’t stop the tears

From falling down my face

Crazy Pen Drawings Monday March 28, 2016

Sunday March 27, 2016: Easter Sunday

Sunday March 27, 2016: Easter Sunday

 

Good Afternoon All. First of all I want to say Happy Easter. I hope you are all well and enjoying your Easter Sunday. This morning I delivered newspapers. I drank a cup of coffee and had a cup of Earl Grey Tea. One thing I am considering doing is not drinking coffee and tea for a year to see how I feel. Maybe my body will feel better. I want to get back into drinking juice. I believe I started drinking coffee and tea in either 2008 or maybe 2010. The thing is I don’t want to be addicted to caffeine. I am noticing that I am not enjoying Earl Grey Tea and Indian Chai Tea as much as I used to. I want to be able to enjoy Earl Grey Tea and Indian Chai Tea and only have the tea once in a while now as a treat. I also want to enjoy coffee as a treat once in a blue moon. One thing I dislike about coffee and tea is that it makes you want to use the bathroom too much. Another thing I dislike about tea is that the packaging is not environmentally friendly. Every tea bag comes wrapped up in paper. And in each box of tea you only get like 20 tea bags. Okay enough about coffee and tea. I also watched some motivational videos today and listened to some music. I also created some pen drawings to mail to my great aunt and I wrote down song lyric ideas. I am heading out later on today just to enjoy the outdoors. I am also apartment hunting and job hunting. Yesterday I was talking to one of my Boxing teammates and he doesn’t think I am ready to be in a Boxing Fight. I agree with him that I am not ready to be in a Boxing Fight but I hope one day in the near future I will be ready. I have a longing to fight in the ring. I was asking him what I could do to improve and he told me to go for runs every day so I will start running daily. All right that is all I have to say for now.

Sunday March 27, 2016 - Crazy Art Work

 

 

Saturday March 26, 2016

Good Morning All. I hope you are all having a great morning and have plans for the day. Today I am applying for jobs, searching for apartments and going to the gym. But my first goal to accomplish is having a shower because I need to wash my hair. My next goal to accomplish is eating oatmeal and drinking hot chocolate as well as using a heating pad on my left knee which is killing me. Okay that is all for now.

Friday March 25, 2016

Friday March 25, 2016

Good Morning All. First Of All I Want To Wish You All A Happy Good Friday.

 

 

 

Yesterday I went to the gym and took part in Boxing and Kickboxing Classes. My Boxing and Kickboxing Coach is still always on my case about "Moving My Feet". I sometimes just forget but for the most part I am trying to move my feet more in Boxing and Kickboxing. I also watched Systema Yesterday, applied to two support worker jobs and contacted some potential housing places. I think I have also found someone who can teach me some guitar notes. Today I am meeting a friend. I will write more later. Okay so here is an update. I have been busy sending out job applications. I sent out three job applications to home care companies. I am also at Starbucks drinking coffee so that I can stay motivated.

 

Goals

 

Goals I Have For Myself

 

1. Watch Motivational Videos Every Morning

2. Watch Sports Documentaries on Athletes Every Day

Thursday March 24, 2016

Yesterday evening I took part in Boxing class. I felt that I did a lot better in Boxing class on Wednesday then on Tuesday. I felt more focused and not unfocused like Tuesday. At the moment I am watching a documentary about Eckhart Tolle. Eckhart Tolle says that it is possible to live free of suffering and I would love to live free of suffering. I am tired of suffering from cyber bullying. I am tired of suffering from abuse. I am tired of being a victim.

Peace

Where I Get Peace From?

 

·        I Get Peace From Hearing Birds Chirping

·        I Get Peace From Seeing Deer

·        I Get Peace From Seeing Owls

·        I Get Peace From Seeing Rabbits

·        I Get Peace From The Mountains

·        I Get Peace From The Water

  

Wednesday March 23, 2013.

Wednesday March 23, 2016



Good Afternoon All. Yesterday I saw the movie "Miracles From Heaven" at Silvercity with a good friend from college. The movie was really good. It was based on a true story about an young girl who is ill with A GI illness and in the end she is cured and is able to live a normal life. That's all I want to say about the movie without giving too much away.

Now I am interested in reading the book "Miracles From Heaven" that the movie was based off of.

 

 

Yesterday I also went to the gym and took part in Boxing class and also Kickboxing class. I watched Systema Class. In Boxing class I wasn't focused for some reason and forgot how to do the slip. I don't why that is. I was slipping to the right instead of the left. I do not know what was wrong with me.

 

 

Today I was planning on going to drop off some resumes but my new plan is to drop off resumes tomorrow morning. Otherwise I would not make it to the gym in time for Boxing class tonight and I would be waiting for the bus to go home for an hour. I did type up a new cover letter though which is a good thing. The cover letter will go along with my resume and application for the community support worker jobs that I am applying for. 

 

 

I am posting some pictures of musical instruments that I would like to own in the near future.

 

 

 

I would love to one day own a flute and play flute in a community concert band. I have played around on my Father's flute before and really like the instrument. One thing about the flute that appeals to me is that it doesn't have reeds like a clarinet has. Another good thing about the flute is that it comes in only three pieces while the clarinet is more then three pieces. I also really enjoy listening to the tone of the flute as well.

I would love to go and buy a fife eventually and have fun playing around on the fife.

I would love to go and buy a fife eventually and have fun playing around on the fife.

I would love to one day own a flute and play flute in a community concert band. I have played around on my Father's flute before and really like the instrument. One thing about the flute that appeals to me is that it doesn't have reeds like a clarinet has. Another good thing about the flute is that it comes in only three pieces while the clarinet is more then three pieces. I also really enjoy listening to the tone of the flute as well.

I would love to one day own a flute and play flute in a community concert band. I have played around on my Father's flute before and really like the instrument. One thing about the flute that appeals to me is that it doesn't have reeds like a clarinet has. Another good thing about the flute is that it comes in only three pieces while the clarinet is more then three pieces. I also really enjoy listening to the tone of the flute as well.

An instrument that appeals to me is the Charango. I really want to own a Charango. The Charango will be the next stringed instrument that I buy.

I would eventually like to own a mandolin.

I am also posting a picture of a clarinet. I don't want to own a clarinet in the future. But I had three good enjoyable years of playing the clarinet back in my middle school days.

 

 

The beautiful clarinet

 

Finally I am posting some crazy pen drawings I created today that I hope you all enjoy looking at.

 

 



 

Okay one more thing to write and add to my blog post today is that the musical instruments that I own right now at the moment are a recorder, ukulele and a guitar. I love the recorder. I love the ukulele and I love the guitar. I have no idea how to play the ukulele or guitar yet but when I used to work as a support worker I used to just strum the guitar and ukulele and make up random songs for the guy that I used to work with.



Comfort

A Blog Post About What I Take Comfort In

 

1. I Take Comfort In Bike Riding

2. I Take Comfort In Boxing - I Like Boxing And Getting Out My Anger And Aggression.

3. I Take Comfort In Drinking Coffee - There is nothing better then drinking a hot cup of coffee first thing in the morning.

4. I Take Comfort In Curling - I enjoy being on the ice and curling.

5. I Take Comfort In Drinking Hot Chocolate

6. I Take Comfort In Drinking Tea

7. I Take Comfort In Field-hockey 

8. I Take Comfort In Hiking

9. I Take Comfort In Journaling

10.       I Take Comfort In Kickboxing

11.       I Take Comfort In Listening To Music

12.       I Take Comfort In Photography

13.       I Take Comfort In Reading

14.       I Take Comfort In The Mountains

15.       I Take Comfort In Writing

 

Sunday March 20, 2016

Good Morning All. Today is the first day of spring so I want to wish you all a Happy Spring.

This morning as I was delivering newspapers I picked up at least 10 beer cans or more which I will now take to the recycle depot. At the recycle depot I will receive money for dropping off the beer cans.

It was trying to rain this morning while I was delivering the newspapers but luckily the rain stayed away.

Okay so after I got home I drank ice tea and had some hot chocolate and then slept for a while only waking up close to 12:00pm.

I just made some Blossom Green Tea. I am going to drink the tea, do some cleaning and then head out. My plan is to go to Starbucks and chill out at Starbucks while applying for jobs and searching for apartments. Tonight I will try to make it to Glad Tidings Church. I will write more later.